I Don't Know

I want to understand.
There are so many things
about You that don’t make sense,
so many passages
in the Bible remain obscure to me,
so many of Your promises
and directions
that I can’t comprehend.
I want to know.
I want to be able
to explain them to others,
to appear knowledgeable and wise.
When an unbeliever
asks me questions
I want to be able to answer them
instead of looking like a fool
when I say ‘I don’t know.’
You must have Your reasons
for keeping us in the dark.
I just want You to know
that it’s really annoying.

Mirror Girl

As I look into the mirror
at the person mimicking me
I wonder how on Earth
I came to this.

This person that I see
is not the one I wanted,
this person is not
who I am inside.

What do people see
when they look into my eyes?
Do they see my gentle heart
or my kind soul?

Or do the clothing and the hairstyle
overpower all within?
Am I just a hollow shell
painted with a smile?

As I look into the mirror
at the person I am not,
I begin to see traces
of who I used to be.

I come to the decision
to make myself once more me
and allow the world
to see me once again.